2017 is a big year for me.
2017 marked five years since my dad died; 2017 would have been his 60th birthday; 2017 is when I turn 30; 2017 is when I left my husband and started a completely new life.
In 2017 I came to the realization that life is short. 90s music has taught me a lot, one of those being: “you’re a slave to the money then you die.” I woke up and thought, I could die tomorrow. I deserve to be happy right now. And you know what? Maybe I won’t die tomorrow. I’m turning 30…maybe I have 60 years left in me. And if I do, do I want to spend 60 years like this?
No. No, I didn’t.
So I closed my business. I packed up very few of my belongings. And I started my new life.
I got married at 21, to someone I had known since I was 13. Did you know that your brain is not fully developed until you’re approximately 25? This is a fact. Your frontal lobe is the last part of your brain to finish developing, and this doesn’t happen until adulthood. This means that before you’re 25, you aren’t a complete person.
Who you are at 30 is vastly different from who you are at 13. That’s just life. I am not the same person I was at 13. I am not the same person I was at 21. And I believe that it is never too late to become the person you were meant to be.
So that’s what I’m doing. I’m growing and changing and making stupid decisions along the way. I’m dumb. That isn’t me being self-deprecating, although I’m quite good at that. I make dumb decisions sometimes. And then I write about them.